No one is going to give you everything you need. No one is going to push you as hard as you will push yourself. No one is going to show you the way. No one is going to give you permission to lead or create or make art or do important things or be happy or make your life the life you want. No one is going to make you do what you know you need to do.
Take control. Figure out what you need. Start working. Create something amazing. Start again.
(So easy to say, but so very hard to do.)